CHAMS Meeting- 14th of January
Last week I said I had a meeting with CHAMS to discuss CBT or any other form of help I can get. It didn’t really go that well, I’m not comfortable around new people who constantly ask me questions or straight on talk to me. So I made my mum do most of the talking. We talked about how my OCD is just a rapid cycle and if I got CBT, how they would try to stop my fear of metal objects. But being me, I just cried and stared out the window thinking of rabbits. My mum also discussed how she thinks I am on the Autistic Spectrum, but doesn’t want me tested because she doesn’t want me to ‘have a label’, in my opinion, I’m already labled as ‘the girl with OCD’ so it doesn’t make a big difference as I’m already labled.
Because my anixety was pretty high already, the lady who I had the meeting with didn’t see the true me, so I may have counselling sessions as I am not ready for CBT yet. I am prepared to leave behind the CBT for now, and try self help first so I can work on my own in my own time. But if self help doesn’t work, then I can either have CBT, or be out on medication. No one understands how much I’d hate to be put in medication! I have had another meeting booked for the 28th, so I will see how well that goes before I make a proper decision, but so far, I’d rather try self help so I am in complete control of everything.
insidemymindofocd 
Therapy can be really difficult, but I’ve found it as the best thing in the long run for me. Everyone can find it different though. Maybe give it a little bit of time, but self help can be awesome too! Let me know how you get on. : ) xx