Yesterday(10th January) I received a letter from CHAMS, the letter told me that on the 14th of January(next Tuesday) I was to go to the nearest CHAMS centre to me to discuss me getting CBT. I have to admit, I am quite scared of getting CBT as I am not exactly a fan of the whole “Changing the way you think”. But I am going to have to give it a go. I will make a post of what happens after I have had this appointment.
On to the second subject of this post, I often experience a few days or hours where I will be very sad, and I will cry quite a lot. Me and my form teacher at school(who is the only person who actually helps me at school) call these ‘Bad Days’. Okay, he doesn’t really do much to help me, but it is nice knowing that when I am having a bad day, he is there for me. Recently this week, I was having 2 bad days(Thursday and Friday), throughout those days I couldn’t really think of much, and even when I was thinking, it wasn’t positive thinking. Those two days I just felt like I was being eaten alive by my own mind. Sometimes in my head it’s a pretty dark place.
Now I know that some of you will disagree with this(so I feel rather unsafe about posting this but I must get my message across), but we all have a right to our own opinion, so here is mine.
Basically, I think OCD and other types of disorders are thought of completely differently to those in society who have no connection with them. They are not seen as medical issues, and are used more as adjectives. It is hard for us to say to someone “I suffer with OCD” because it’s likely that they will reply with “Oh I know how you feel, I need to have everything clean and in a certain order because if I don’t it annoys me”. This drives me mad, people with OCD don’t clean or have things in order because it annoys us, we do it because think something bad will happen to loved ones if we don’t. So it’s hard for people with OCD to come open about our issues. And I highly respect people who have no connection with OCD or any other disorders who understand the things we go through and don’t use OCD or any other form of medical issue as an adjective. This photo shows how some issues are used in the wrong way. I know some may disagree with this, but this is just what I think, society is a mean and dangerous place, especially for some people. I thank you for reading this, and I hope you understand what I mean.
And to add on, fashion brands have stared using mental and eating disorders as something to put on clothing. I have never been so angry at this before, it’s almost as if the designers don’t give one about these issues! I do not want to live in a world where it is considered fashionable to have Depression written all over a shirt. It really does anger and upset me that I live in a world that does this that I just can’t explain how I feel about this! I’m going to finish before I go on a full rant. But one last thing, just please help try and get rid of these clothes, it’s just wrong.
I am taking part in Zero to Hero: 30 Days to a better blog. The first thing we have to do to get a better blog is exactly what the title says. We have been given some questions to answer, so here we go:
Q. Why are you blogging, rather than keeping a personal journal? A. Well, the reason why I’m blogging as I am not too keen on personal journals, I’ve tried many times in the past, but never kept to it. I guessed that blogging would be more fun and I’d be more in to it, which I am. Plus, I don’t mind people reading my blog, that’s a main reason why I am blogging, I don’t mind people from different places all over the world getting a look in to my life.
Q. What topics do you think you’ll write about? A. If my blog goes far and people are genuinely interested in my blog, then I would let the readers decide. I have offered this in my Blogger blog, but had no replies. So really, I just hope to keep interested readers happy by blogging about what they want to hear.
Q. Who would you love to contact with via your blog? A. During my time blogging, I would love to come in contact with other bloggers with the same kind of blog as me, I want to hear their story and they manage to cope with their mental health issues. They may not be the same as mine, but I would love to be in contact with other people, like I have done already, I now have 2 internet friends who have blogs, just because we all have one.
Q. If you blog successfully throughout 2014, what would you hope to have accomplished? A. During my time blogging throughout 2014, I hope to have made some more blogging friends, I hope to give people who do not a full understanding of mental health, a better understanding. And readers who will accompany me through 2014 and maybe more years to come.
To make this year a good year, I plan on having a few resolutions. These include working on beating my OCD, as well as working on my blogs. I plan to work well during my GCSE’s, and try to get a little closer to my dream job. As some people were saying, “Tomorrow is the first blank page of a 365 page book. Write a good one”.
Remember this quote, and remember to make 2014 one of the best years of your life.
Okay, I have figured out how to work WordPress, so hopefully I can also blog on here as well as Blogger/BlogSpot!
Just so you have some background information about me if you will be a reader on WordPress and not Blogger, I am 15 years old, I suffer with OCD and Dyslexia(but my blog is going to be mostly based on my OCD). When people start to read my blog I will post up my full story in 3 parts, this is about how I got diagnosed with OCD and other posts about my daily struggles. I hope that you will accompany me on my journey to try and fight and overcome these walls that are in my way.
Hello, I am currently in charge of a blog on the Blogger site. It is called Inside My Mind, personally I wanted to also start the same blog on here, but I have got to admit, I am finding it difficult to work this site, and I am far more comfortable with Blogger, this is just to make anyone who reads this aware that if you are interested in this blog then please go to Blogger and search for Inside My Mind, as that is the blog which is used more by me. In fact, if you are genuinely interested, here is a link to my Blogger blog: http://insidemymindofocd.blogspot.co.uk/ Thank you 🙂